Humbled

This past week I have been following a blog about a little boy James Camden Sikes (AKA Jamesie). James was diagnosed with a brain tumor on June 23, 2011.  The were able to remove 95% of the tumor.  They were waiting for sweet James to recover some from his BIG surgery before they began chemo. In a two week period not only did the tumor grow back completely in the area where they took it out but it also spread.  So his parents had to make the tough decision to start chemo and only buy time for James who would be in constant pain from the treatment or take him home to die peacefully.  As I read the blog when they found out that it had spread knowing that no matter what they chose their little boy who was only 8 months old would die, I just began to weep. I thought if I was in their position what would I do.  They chose to take him home which I think knowing that no matter what you did the outcome would be the same I think I would have chose to take him home where he would be peaceful.  I have prayed endlessly for this family.  I have prayed for strength and peace through this tough time.  I have not been able to get them off my mind and heart.  I just can not fathom. 

On Saturday July 16, 2011 at 3:50 p.m. James went to be with Jesus.  He finally beat his tumor.  His body was finally healed and he knew no more pain.  I just pray for his parents as they prepare to bury their sweet angel and continue to live their lives.  I have no idea how I would be able to go on.  One thing I do know is that James has touched my life in more ways than I can ever describe.  I should also make note that I have never met James, Kara or Matthew.  But their story has humbled me and really made me think about life in a completely different way.  If I find myself complaining I stop.  What do I have to complain about?  God has blessed me with a wonderful husband, a beautiful and healthy baby boy, a job, a roof over my head, a car, and a family that loves me more than I know.  I have also found myself being more patient with my son.  As it is very hard to be a working mom and sometimes at the end of a day patience is not really all there.  So today as I sit here and type I am thanking God for all my blessings.  I am also continuing to pray for the Sikes family as they are definitely going to need them.   I am also thanking God for James because I do believe with 100% of my heart that sweet little baby has affected more lives than I can ever dream of doing in my lifetime and for that I am grateful because mine was one of them.